shy girl takes a chance and get shot down

okay well i love to sing BUT I'm not the biggest fan of singing in front of ppl when they can hear me... kinda its weird i get all nervous and my hands shake but i love the reaction i get like clapping and ppl calling my name so i took a chance and tried for a solo in a show called the cabaret i sang the song part of your world from the little mermaid but brittany (a new singer in our class) decided she was gonna do that song too but pumped up my ego by saying i was gonna get the part not her but i tried to be nice and told her that who ever mr. T thinks it best will win after hearing her sing i thought okay i have this on, im not onw to go around braggin that my voice is the best but i think i have a decent singing voice and for this song brittany just didnt have the voice and i think mine is decent so mr. T had said that we didnt have to have it memorized and even though its a disny song i was skettchie on some parts so i had the papers with me so i didnt screw up well evreyone told me i had deffinatly got the part and that i had done a really good job i listned to others try out and gave my mental rateing of there performances the nextday i had to sing with the piano and it was harder then i thought and i was off beat then brittany went and she was off beat too but he let her sing longer then he had a hissie fit bc not evreyone had there lines memorized HE SAID WE DIDNT HAVE TO HAVE THEM MEMORIZED TILL MONDAY (it was friday btw) so after my 7th hr i went and looked at the list to see if i made it, i didnt brittany did and so did my friend brook so i was happy for them but sad bc i had thought i did better then brittany but i didnt want to say anything bc she got it bc she deserved it like i had said before so tonight i went to the caboret show and still think i could have dont better and my friends and ppl who dont even know what my voice sounds like to give you a little tast of how brittany sounded i feel bad and bitchy saying it but I WISH I GOT THE PART INSTED OF BRITTANY I COULD HAVE DONE IT BETTER yeah and i know exactly where i get that way of thinking ..... my mom haha well i got to go to bed school tomarrow so bye bye